Cristina
Persiani
by Gyury Kozmos
This is the painting I start
with ... here we
are ... ... no head ... all the bodies are missing the body pats
or something
here in the photos ... ... there are no heads, no hands or no
legs ... to
explain these neo-expressionist paintings ... Pay attention to
the body parts
where we
have four places ... with breath-taking in mindfullness... the
individual parts
of the body do give us messages, about our needy feelings ...
The heart with
the feelings of salvation and healing. The head with ideas that
block us from the
heart. Interestingly, our ancestors from olden times are the
carriers of these
feelings in our bodypart
members. Those
who are the oldest are in the head ... when the corpses have
been eaten after
wars because they thought it was good for healing. The 15th
Century… .We have
in our minds the age of the Wounded or Toxic Parent (which is
reflected in the
false beliefs of the wounded childhood Ego). And in our hearts,
the Renewed
(Recovering, Rising) Son is the Good Enough Parent or Brother.
This painting,
for example, contains many heads. That means he's in his head,
stuck. The
painting is called Spazio, (Space), that is, he left the "space"
of
personality, because we leave, give ourselves to others (ideas)
when we stay in
our head.
I want to tell you how I found
these paintings
... when I was going to prepare for a Spanish exam and visited a
friend in
Spain and had an interesting painting on his wall. A woman's
legs with a horse
head. And this painting reminded me of Erzsébet Báthory, whose
husband, the legendary
Hungarian chief captain (Nádasdy), reminded me of his true
story, who wanted to
punish the rebellious Walloon soldiers (the deserters of the
Spanish war) and
they were sewn into the skin of a horse. And they were placed
near the fire to
cause harm and pain and to laugh at the sufferers.
And every voice or feeling in
the body corresponds
to a century. The
place of the 15th
century is here in our Head ... we call it the Father, the
goals, the eye ...
and the Sister is in the Back with the Thoughts ... and then at
the abdomen or
Belly there is the Recovering Son
of whom
the Mother has taken care of ... and every century has 4 family
Attitude- it is
always repetitive.
There are four family
attitudes, and every Attitude in the 4th century corresponds to
a known person,
a king or an artist. Who had the greatest impact on people in
contemporaries.
One generation is 25 years old, and this 25-year-old with a
different soul
setup is repeated 4 times each century.
An Egyptian legend says that
Osiris was
murdered and cut into parts by his
son,
Seth, he tore it
and híd it in different
generations, and his brother Horus helped to revive his body.
And this legend
is also in the Talmud, with the Messiah, who has no body yet,
but wants to
appear and therefore collect the members of his body from his
various
ancestors, because there is a miraculous Rabbi each generation,
who is imagined
as a Messiah in successive generations ... And in history we
find them and
their contemporaries, the kings - in every century we find in
the family Attitude
of the Good Enough
Adults - there is one
in a century who really found „Jesus”. (Or a body part of Him,
that is, an
emotional base tone for the century).
And yes, here are the
generations and kings
within us, because we inherit not only our eyes and ears, but
also the
problem-solving skills, the IQ, and therefore the Injured and
the Good Enough
Adult and the Children's Parents are inherited in us - that is,
the
rational fantasies
of an (inherited) adult
personality, symbolized by Jesus - that is, in the meaning of
the literal word:
the Yes-Us - who can pull out (the original Hebrew meaning is
this) the injured
child from the inside, who always
complains, every day ... If we are able to observe this in
meditation,
breathing, or otherwise.
And generally we are not aware
of our
situation that we no longer have to get into the child who did
not have the
solutions when mothers and fathers left them (crèche,
kindergarten, orphanage,
expectations, boundaries, etc.) and so as children always do need to find
an instant comforter -
sugar or other drugs - because then as kids yes, they needed that
immediate comfort. But today,
as adults, if we
pay attention, we can
take care of ourselves, our balance, with more serious meansor
tools.
And today, almost only artists
feel that they
de feel themselves inside, they do feel their feelings (as body
parts) and
therefore they do show how we have no unified personality - and
this is
expressed as missing arms, hands, feet, heads or crates.
And artists such as Cristina,
who does express
these shortcomings - like the bodies without the limbs in her
paintings - she
informs us and others
that we need to
take care of ourselves and not stifle our feelings, not even if
bad, not even
then.
People who are not related to
their personality-parts,
so their feelings
do not harmonize with
their thoughts: they do not pay attention
to themselves. Me too
I gave out
the job of „loving” and „validating” myself to others (friends
and partners)
and hoped to control the outcome. But it is always a mistake.
We are in a collective hypnosis
that says that
we have to give love to others and give them love (value). If we
give first
to ourselves
appreciation and love - we
are selfish. However, this egoistic collective hypnosis is
harmful: it is the
hidden lesson of Cristina Persiani's works. (It may be
unintentional - because
I understand it now, and the meaning of the image, like life, is
in the eyes of
the viewer.)
Because the emotional
"exchange"
doesn't work that way. First of all, you have to start by paying
attention and
seeing that we can see first our value and only then share our
self-worth with
others - of course, only if those others are in this sharing
mode instead of
“caring” for the traditional emotional exchange. From consumers
we will become
creators in the realm of Infinite Love.
The egoists are men and women
who live in
"barter", who accept the mass market of assessments, i.e. the
exchange of love and values, and endure that this is always
concluding in some
communication problem (and often intense suffering, debate,
explanation, or
tactful „egg-dance”). I am very grateful to Cristina Persiani,
(her name shows
that the Hungarian Jazians are her ancestral relatives of
Persia) who showed us
these lessons with body images in which the limbs were absent
and what these
shortcomings expressed: to be separate from our feelings, to
silence them many
times before - and that's why we are not mature adults many
times a day. But we
can be more and more advanced in changing our ways for more
self-care.