The Poetry of T. Kar

T. Kar works as a software consultant. Pastimes include writing, reading, travel, photography and music. He lives in  Lexington, KY

To be, Not to be....

Pensive Mood

Kaleidoscope

Love Patterns, Stereotypes and All That Jazz

No Kidding About Love

Bring Me a Star

Ode to Solitude


                            To be, Not to be....


                                        Let me have the wings of a butterfly
                                        So I may fly away into my world
                                        Of dream that is not yet defined
                                        Because of my weaknesses and
                                        My confusions, still seem to rule
                                        My life, my emotions
                                        My faculties and my passions
                                        Carving shapes and colors in empty space
                                        I don't want to be the Pyramids
                                        The Colosseum or the Sphynx
                                        Or even a high density floppy disk
                                        I would rather be the north wind
                                        Touch you gently and whisper in your ears
                                        All my romance with the bumble bee
                                        Before you feel me no more
                                        I would rather be the mountain stream
                                        Trying to impress the rocks as I strive
                                        Would splash and soak you with my dance
                                        To Beethoven's Symphony No. 5
                                        Before I dry up in the desert below...

                                           

Pensive Mood


Winds sizzling through the Eucalyptus branches
Whistling tunes as the snowflake dances
Sitting lonely on the armchair
She wraps her shawl a little tighter
In melancholy she thinks about her son
Far away who has gone looking for fortune
The fire and the darkness surrounds her
While she flips through the album
Of her memories in a cold winter night
In finer prints she remembers
The joy of holding her boy the day he was born
The pains and the pleasures of her motherhood
Little incidents and accidents now and then
Feels the pride on his achievements
Worries of uncertainties at times
She tries to analyze how the definition
Of responsibility has changed over generation
How this electronic age has made this earth
A very small place to communicate but
Big enough to create times devoid of warmth

                                    Kaleidoscope

                                    I am walking down the Main Street
                                    Summer colors all around
                                    I can hear Bare Naked Beach Boys Band
                                    Playing heavy rock with their funky bars
                                    I dance and I roll I whistle the tune
                                    A little wired for sound, when
                                    My thoughts are a passing game
                                    Changing shapes open my eyes
                                    Following those thrilling patterns
                                    On the main streets of our lives
                                    Through the fusion and fission
                                    And all the celebrations. . .tires me sometimes
                                    The feeling's there for a hundred years
                                    Sublime thoughts knock on my door
                                    When time comes and duties frown
                                    I keep an ice pack to cool me down
                                    Gypsies don't fit inside stonewalls
                                    Holding my mind as free as a bird
                                    Sitting here watching the wheels
                                    Eyes stuck up in my kaleidoscope

                                   Love Patterns, Stereotypes and All That Jazz

                                   When I look back down the valleys
                                   I see a lake so still
                                   Doesn't care for the stream that pours in
                                   Not a ripple to please

                                   When we're down on rock
                                   Playing fun 'n games with the clock
                                   Innovative satire deep buried in our heart
                                   Gets lost into the dead old sea

                                   We're trying to mind the grinding wheels
                                   Of tons and tons of rules to play
                                   Pick and choose or throw the load
                                   Run for the buck folks, it's payday

                                   It's a search for a theme with notes on the rim
                                   Dying for a look with so much desire
                                   Can you shake off the chains with the deepest love
                                   And a craving heart in fire

                                   It's a still life we would all love to color
                                   With wildest dreams that would never end
                                   I can wait for my turn to set the sail
                                   As we design love patterns and set new trends

 

                                   No Kidding About Love

                                   Passing by 1501 Eucalyptus Street often
                                   For a hope to see my beautiful damsel
                                   Peeping through her window
                                   On the streets below

                                   I walk down there with my shaking heart
                                   To catch glimpses of her smile
                                   She lights my heart with fire
                                   Fills me up with desire

                                   My facade of innocence my eyes catching her
                                   Expressions in solitude and that she like me
                                   Can only hear my whispers 
                                   My wits and my satire

                                   Would like to know what keeps her awake all night
                                   What causes her to break in her cry
                                   My crazy craving for her burns
                                   In my inner space

                                   My promise to bring the heaven on our earth
                                   I hope she tells me just like it is
                                   I am ready to be a phoenix
                                   In her heavenly grace

                                 Bring Me a Star

                                 You wanted to reach to the stars
                                 Got on the rooftop
                                 Walked underneath the Milky Way
                                 Leaving me behind while time stood still
                                 In a quest for the eternal truth
                                 The divine wisdom that created this
wonderful world
                                 I was dumb struck waiting on my side of reality
                                 Patiently with a request:
                                 Will you please bring me the most beautiful star?
                                 I was cradling in my hands, fresh white jasmine
                                 Which I forgot to offer you when you left in a hurry
                                 All of a sudden, you changed your mind,
                                 Came down and stepped into my world
                                 'I like it ' you said with mischief in your smile
                                 'It's easy for me to live here.
                                 I like being with you, my dear
                                 I don't want to play up there any more.'
                                 I jumped in joy breaking the shackles,
                                 Pulled out a pack of cards and said,
                                 'Honey, can I show you some tricks?'



Ode to Solitude

 

     Heavy artillery fire shattering the silence
     The serenity of the moon lit night
     Incessant heavy shelling shaking foundations
     Rocking feelings, senses
     And the spirit that Eric was once
     Taught to uphold through the culture
     Of his Fatherland when he was young
     No time to think of lofty ideas
     When life was imperilled by those mortars
     It was blitzkrieg and everybody's worst
     Nightmare has become real in Dusseldorf

     Staying alive behind the enemy lines
     The biggest challenge, especially
     When she was sitting across the table
     Looking at him in despair
     His lovely Christina...

     The hope to live for the day
     Was withering her slowly
     The hope that someday all of this would end
     Someday they would get married
     And stand holding hands
     On the banks of the beautiful Rhine
     Where their romance all started
     The only thing that still exists
     In the original form and pattern
     All stories fabled down the generations
     That will go on if people still exist
     On the face of this pulverized earth

     Who wanted the war anyway?
     Eric, whose passion was woodcarving?
     All he wanted was to be in love
     A little money to buy Christina
     A gift now and then and watch her smile
     Let that be a dream come true someday

     Thinking about what could happen tomorrow
     A time for imagination, a time for reconciliation
     Unless alarmed by the sirens as the sorties fly
     For Eric the toughest thing to do now is to
     Get some food from the old bunker
     They tried to sleep through last night
     Eric left while Christina cried
     With a profound question on her mind
     Prayed for his safe return so that
     She might hold him again

     Eric came back, it's only been a matter of time
     Half an hour later to find
     His dream shattered in the concrete rubbles
     Under which his sweetheart lies deep
     Somewhere, in her eternal sleep
     Is he falling apart or the whole earth trembling?
     Is time standing still?
     To live or to die that remained
     Only to be answered now and then
     Ever before and ever after

     So many years have passed
     So many books written that decorate
     National archives, libraries and the like
     So many movies made,
     So many awards bestowed
     We've built our cathedrals of egos
     We've tried to put human tragedies
     Into oblivion, tragedies
     Once painted on the face
     Of this automated earth
     And live for ourselves with
     The idea that we own this world
     Eric's story never got told
     He is one of the millions
     He is a symbol that
     Life still goes on while
     His beautiful Rhine flows
     As the only witness he knows

     He comes here every evening,
     The setting sun colors the city skyline
     He stands still with his walking stick
     Never talking or smiling
     He spends those never ending moments
     Watching the waves that ripple
     Trying to find the reflection
     That is changing as the water flows
     When staying alive was a surprise
     His long lost sweetheart would hug him
     Making promises to love him, only him
     For every stone she threw into the water

     The Rhine reminds him of the time
     They first met at a flower show
     One summer evening, and
     How pretty she looked
     The tulip and the smile
     Still fresh in his mind
     Time heals everything
     For those who do not care
     For the rest it's a dream
     Memories to cherish
     The only hope to live for
     When lost into the darkness
     Of one's own shadows
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